You are PUNK! U like being around those who are
Ok so this one is just way too accurate... *sigh*
You're Alice's Adventures in Wonderland!
by Lewis Carroll
After stumbling down the wrong turn in life, you've had your mind
opened to a number of strange and curious things. As life grows curiouser and curiouser,
you have to ask yourself what's real and what's the picture of illusion. Little is coming
to your aid in discerning fantasy from fact, but the line between them is so blurry that
it's starting not to matter. Be careful around rabbit holes and those who smile to much,
and just avoid hat shops altogether.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
You're The Moon!
You frequently take small steps, but you think very highly of each and
every one of them. This aloof attitude doesn't begin to reflect how high and mighty you
actually are, though you are able to reflect light onto others when it seems appropriate.
Whether the glass is half full, half empty, waxing pedantic, or even crescent-shaped is
something ever-changing in your perspective. These mood swings at least follow a
consistent cycle, one that makes others believe you have mystical powers. Ultimately,
your head is always in the clouds and you just can't seem to stay grounded.
Take the State Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
You're Egypt!
Curator of ancient mystical secrets, your life on the surface is fairly
typical these days. Though you are in denial about more things than most people.
Nevertheless, you're trying to convince people that you're safe despite your more
volatile and unstable times that seem to be behind you. You like cats a whole lot.
You'd probably really appreciate The Blue
Pyramid.
Take
the Country Quiz at the href="http://bluepyramid.org">Blue Pyramid
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Very High |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | High |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Extreme |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Extreme |
| Level 7 (Violent) | Extreme |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Very High |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Extreme |
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | High |
| Schizoid: | High |
| Schizotypal: | High |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | Moderate |
| Avoidant: | Very High |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
Ok.. so I feel like a complete fool now... Everything i said about my the guy I met online? I take back. I was a delusional idiot. Gah.... after everything Ive gone through with men in my life, you would think that I'd be more careful. But no. I fell head over heels in love for a guy.. I had always promised myself that I wouldnt fall that hard for someone. That i wouldnt give myself that.. completely. So what do I do? The first guy that shows me tons of attention in a long time.. I go and develop real feelings for. So what does that get me? Not just a broken heart, cuz Ive had those before.. This was a very long painful process of realization.. I'm not even sure there's anything left of my heart at this point. I'm slowly starting to block everyone out again. This whole being open and letting people in gig is really damn over rated. I've become so damn numb.. Nothing matters anymore. *shrugs* i know he doesnt love me and didnt love me anywhere near as much as i did him. And that hurt so much.. More than I ever thought it would. And its funny. He has someone else now. But still wants to pretend that he and I are something. I gave him the perfect out the other night. But no, he wants to insist that he still loves me.. of course he loves me, why would i think otherwise? pppffft! Fuck that. How could i feel otherwise? Gee I dunno can we ask the powers that be to let us borrow the videotape of the past like four months or so? See how he's constantly disregarded my feelings on things? How blatantly disrespectful he's been at times? How he's purposely hurt me? Or ignored me? Only to come back a few hours later to say " I love ya, I missed you today. I miss talking to you" BULLSHIT! And... I know I'm a masochist. I know that i should just end it. But... then he wins ya know? He can pretend that I broke up with him, that i was the equivalent of the wicked witch of the west. Fuck that. No.. he wants us to be over with, he can break up with me his damn self. I'm not gonna do anymore favors for him. I'm through being all nice and stuff.. Gah.. and the thing is? I'm not even truly angry. I'm cold. Numb. This is my revenge to him, but.. i doubt i'll reap any satisfaction from it. I cant feel anymore. I had to turn my heart off before there was nothing left of it.
So I figure I should start off with the basics.. I'm a 22 year old female living in NYC. I currently live with my parents, but am planning on remedying that soon.. Hopefully at least. I am currently attending my 2nd college. Had to leave the first one a few years back because of a slight drinking problem that affected my grades majorly. When I left I had a 1.3 GPA, if even that high. Coming back to NY, one of the most expensive friggin cities in the world, cured me more or less of my drinking issues. It was too damn expensive for me to drink as much as I had up at school, in West Nowheresville, upstate NY.
It's been a minute since I've written in this but I'm feeling the need to now. My best friend and I have always been close. At times we could almost read each others mind, and finish each others sentences. But over the last month or so, I feel like we're drifting apart. She's always soo moody and when i try to talk to her, to help her, she pulls away even more. She's never done that before. I'm always the one she comes to for help. I mean I know finals and stuff are rough for her, but you know I had finals too, I was stressed too, but I didn't take it out on her, I tried to be as good as possible in not putting my feelings on her.
